I'm back!

Well many months have passed since i have blogged, not that anyone besides my sister reads this. But any how, It has been 5 months since my diagnosis and im on meds and maxed out on the doseage due to awful headaches. Although i have to said i have still had them everyday, but dont want to change meds and then not drive again for two months or more to get it in my system.
 New things that have come into my life; my son moved in from California. A little hard for him getting use to being at home again and the drastic change in weather. But my hubby and i are not use to have to drag someone with us everywhere we go. We snuck out the other day and went to get haircuts and color, sad that was the only time we have been alone, together for awhile now, and it had to be in a salon with tons of people.
  Today is Easter sunday and i feel like i have been cooking all day, not sure this is what God intended. But i made Brunch this afternoon, then made my first ever apple crisp, then started the ham, potatoes and brocolli w/ cheese sauce. So glad it is over, been trying to relax. Will try to keep updated on here better.

Peace out!

Friends

 I discovered today that sometimes you meet people that you never think would be there for you. And then there are the ones that say they will always be there for you and are never there when you truly need them. I have been selling Avon for almost three years and have met several people that have became good customers, But Denise was one of my customers that i felt was more like a friend. When i first started selling to her i was a little annoyed that she always wanted me to sit with her and go through the books from cover to cover and then she would order, but during the last almost three years i have learned that she is really sick and now is no longer able to work and is at home alone most days alone. It broke my heart to tell her that with my new diagnosis i would no longer be able to sell Avon, She was disappointed but tried her best to make me feel better about doing what was best for me. Through our time together i have been the one taking her to emergency appointments and to the grocery store when she just couldnt do it, but now i find myself relying on her. She was so sweet today when she came and picked me up to go to lunch and she offered to take my daughter to work so she didnt have to walk. We had a great time today and i'm really glad that i allowed my self to get out there and meet people when i was new in this area. Every person is placed in your life for a reason and i think that Denise was placed in mind to help me learn to live life like there is no tomorrow!!Thank you lord for all the people you have put in my life!

Life on this snowy planet!

Woke up this morning at about 5:30 a.m. to hear the plow truck going up and down the street, got up and looked out the window and saw nothing but a white blanket covering anything. Yesterday was a pretty nice day, but the weather man kept saying it was gonna slam us and boy did it!! Hubby didnt feel very well this morning so he only cleared part of the driveway, so im sure i will be out there trying my best to clear more of it. Really wishing i was in the bahamas or somewhere warmer today!!

Well yesterday was the day that i had been dreading for a long time. Went into the Neurologist and got my diagnosis of Epilepsy, at first i creid after he left the room. My husband was with me, and was trying his best to keeping from crying, but the tears just came. The nurse came into the room and asked if i was ok after seeing my tears and Ben just told her that i didnt like the news i got. So now i started the medication lastnight and will not be able to drive for two months, until the medication builds up in my system. I'm gonna try to focus on just trying to get rid of this infection i have now and get all better and then when iit warms up i will start walking with Chica, just to get out of the house. It is all up from here!

This just plain sucks!

Friday evening i felt my gums start swelling, thought that perhaps i was having an allergic reaction, so i quickly took two Benedryl and i noticed i really wasnt getting much relief but i tried to sleep. Around 2:30 a.m. i woke up because of an awful taste in my mouth and pain, i noticed that not only was the swelling not going down but was getting worse. So i called the advice nurse, and she placed the Emergency Room doctor on the phone he said i needed to come in sounded like an abscess to him, but that his associate would take a look at me. I got there and checked in, they took my vitals and the doc walked in looked in my mouth for about 10 seconds told me he was going to give me a heavy duty antibiotic and pain meds and wanted me to see my dentist on Monday, he thought it was an abscess tooth. So they gave me the antibiotic to take there and i drove back home and attempted to sleep. Woke up Saturday morning and didnt feel much better, in fact it felt like  the swelling was now in the back of my throat. But had things that needed to get done, so i sucked it up and went to lunch with Ben. Came home after getting prescription filled and took pain meds and laid down to rest. Sunday morning came and i tried to get up and get going and my body just didnt want to do anything but sleep, but had to do errands, so again sucked it up and got moving.
Monday morning i called the dentist office and they got me in right away, amazing what the word "abscess" does for opening his schedule. So i go in they take xrays and even do a panoramic, because he says he doesnt want to miss anything. But none of them show anything wrong with any of the teeth, so he comes to the conclusion that this is a viral infection, because im very susceptable to getting fever blisters. And he tells me that the antibiotic will do nothing for a viral infection to stop taking it. So i send Ben a text letting him know what he said and he insisted that i make an appointment with my doctor, so i called and i couldnt get in with my doctor, but got into see her P.A., i went in at 4 and told her about the ER vist and the DDS visit and she looks at me and doesnt like what she sees, Then she goes into my file on the computer and notices that in December when i had the MRI with contrast that it showed a inflamation in my right mastoid area, which she thinks is where this infection is coming from. She told me to go back on the antibiotic and to have bloodwork done, to see if my white blood cells are increasing or decreasing. Should they be decreasing i would need to add another antibiotic to the mix. Which brings us to today, Tuesday and im actually swelling more in my collar bone lymph nodes, and not feeling much better at all. Sent a message to the P.A. waiting to hear back to see what she wants me to do. And tomorrow is my appointment for the neurologist so hoping for the best!! Just wishing it was all over with!

And the story continues

One week from today i will see the Neurologist again and find out what his plan is. Everyone from family to friends have been telling me to get a second opinion, but im beginning to feel like that is just going to drag out the final results, which is im sure gonna be the diagnoses of Epilepsy. Just so unsure about everything,Im not sure if i want to fight the doctor on this or just follow his instructions and possibly lose my license for two years. I really just hope that this all turns out the best possible for everyone concerned!

Update to come in one week.....

How can one diagnosis change your whole life!

 Try to picture this if you can, Saturday morning my husband and i came home from lunch and some shopping to find in the mail a letter from the neurologist and it says in not so many words that "my second EEG showed some changes supporting the diagnosis of seizures." This totally floored both of us, but we went on to do some more errands, trying to keep our spirits up. In the mean time while sitting in the truck while Ben is in the hardware store i called my big sister who also has Epilepsy, and she tells me it is gonna be taking pills everyday and it will be okay and it is in our family as both she and my brother have it. Then there is my best friend, Karen telling me to make sure before they take my license that i get a second opinion. So all i can say is Saturday was a life changing day. And all my husband could say is that he doesnt want me to sit in this house and grow bigger and bigger and become depressed and miserable. Really?? what are my other choices?? walking in two feet of snow, freezing my ass off? or working out, cause im just not one to be self motivated. And this is my life!!!

My Life trapped at home

November 26, 2010, This day started out to be a little rushed as we wanted to get out to do some shopping for those "Black Friday deals." We sat the alarm for 6 a.m. got up and had Cinnamon rolls for breakfast and ran out the door. With My hubby and 17 yr. old daughter in toe we began our search for that great deal i believe we started at Target where we obtained our energy at Starbuck's and after that hit four more stores. We arrived at Best Buy at about 7:45 a.m. and my eyes started flipping like a channel on t.v. and the next thing i remember was waking up in an ambulance with a EMT trying to get an I.V in my arm and my daughter in the front seat of the ambulance scared to death. Apparently i had a seizure and my daughter caught me, stopping me from falling to the ground and yelled to her dad and they tried to keep me from choking and got someone to call 911. Before arriving at the hospital the Emt told me that my bloodsugar was only 59 after the seizure, so we were all thinking it was low bloodsugar. Once at the hospital they took a Catscan and some blood work, and didnt really find anything that could have caused the seizure. So i was sent home with some pain meds for the pain that i had on only the left side of my body and told me to see my own doctor.
November 29,2010~ Got into to see the nurse practioner and she really didnt know very much about what was going on. She referred me to a Neurologist, so on to make an appointment with him.
Decmber 6, 2010~ My first appointment with the Neurologist, this consisted of me answering tons of questions about my family history and what i saw during my seizure. And then he informed me that he was going to do three tests one of which would be a MRI w/ contrast and two EEG's  so we started the fun of scheduling these appointments. Oh and the great thing about all this the doctor told me i can't drive until i get the results of all three tests.
Scheduled the MRI for the evening of the 15th of December, Thought everything was fine until they placed me insdie the tube and i had a panic attack. So she couldnt finish the test and the open MRI is only on site on Sundays so once again i had to wait and make sure i had a ride there. In the mean time i had an appointment for the EEG on the 21st at 8am. That went pretty well, seemed to go well. On December 26th i got in on a cancellation to the open MRI and they drugged me ahead of time so that went well.
Jan.3, 2011 received a letter from the doctor stating that the EEG was normal, But that he still wanted me to have a second one. And the following day i got another letter stating that the MRI was also normal. So onto the second EEG which is scheduled for tomorrow morning! Mind you during all this time i havent been aloud to drive. Which in this family means that my daughter can no longer work during the week and i cant take care of grocery shopping or mailing anything. So as my title says i have been "trapped at home" for almost two months!!